i feel so black and white today.
i dont know how one can feel a color but i just do. i feel like my life is constant hell. I want to cut myself i want to see the blood drip from my thighs. The feeling of knowing im still alive even though i feel dead inside.the feeling of the blade pressed and dragged against my skin. *SIGH* i cant..
i promised the love of my life i wouldnt do it again.
I love you Zach! You mean the world to me and you're my everything. i need you in my life. You help me realize that everything will be ok. Even if i'm kicked out of my house. even if my mother hates me. I know youll always be there and I can always trust in you for everything. Because i know you understand. I love you more than a puppy going down a drain.(LOL) But seriously I fucking love you baby. more than words would ever be able to express. @enjoi-the-element
 
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thats mah real dress guise!!
and everything here is as close as possible to my actual accessories. its gunnah be a fun fun time!
But i wish Zach could go with me.. it'd be way way better. :/
but yep you guys like???
 
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OK so i cnt make sets on this fucking computer. but i just want to tell you how my 16th bday went..
*sigh* it started off great no party but a day with the fam then off to my dads house for the night. we went shopping and chizz and wen out to eat and to see Hotel Transylvania and Frankenweenie. then we slept over at his apt passing out after a fill of celebrity ghost stories. next day we get to my gmas for sunday brunch. my mom asked me to ask my dad for 15$ for my homecoming ticekt because shes broke. he said no and got mad. then she asked him for winter jackets for my sister and i. he flipped out and screamed at her on the phone for lik 1.5hrs. my mom blamed me for calling my dad shit and that i use him for money. i never said that. i love my dad to death. s my mom told my gma to call me after i left and went ahopping with my aunt. she said that if i love my dad and think hes so grat to live with him because i couldnt come home. so i begged and my papa let me stay up wih them for last night and i hve to go to my gmas wh only lives across the street's hous tonight. im probably gunnah get yelled and screamed and shouted at by them all fucking night. I DIDNT DO ANYTHING!!!
im legit scared to go home. so this was my fan-fucking-great-tastic birthday guise..
*cries*
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